his eyes were the colour of black tea, approximately 20 seconds after youve put the teabag in your mug. You know, that redish honey colour. he was full of cheek. his long eyelashes would peer at you intently without warning. on a boat in the rain in the middle of the ocean raindrops ran down his face and dropped off the tip of his nose. he drank too much. when he laughed all his teeth showed. his accent was sugar and his skin was coffee. he slept with lots of women.
his eyes were classic blue. his sandy hair was cropped close to his head. his accent was mine but stronger. he carried a rubix cube with him everywhere. when he didnt have a rubix cube he had a camera. he drank phillipino rum.
his eyes were so brown they were black. his hair was black. his beard was black. he always wore beanies. his shirt was usually black. his personality was technicolour. he didnt wear socks. his skateboard sat across my feet during lectures. he drank expresso. he called me “books”. he was endearingly awkward. he was far too tall. he had a picture i had drawn bluetacked to his wall. i thought i loved him once. i do. but not like that. he told me that if i left hed cry.
his eyes are the colour of the ocean, when youve waded out to about waist depth and peer to the bottom. if i were to take a photo of him, legs folded on my bed, and develop it in black and white, you would think he was a prisoner of war. he reads to me at night. when he dives he has a tendency to cross his legs and hover like some marine monk. his excitement is contagious. when he says yes and his nose twitches, he means no. his smile starts on one side of his mouth and explodes out like a shock wave. he is scruffy. he likes to waltz when hes drunk. he is my beginning and my end.
every single day I live in society makes me want to become a recluse even more. Anyone know of a forest suitable for a hermit? preferably somewhere that isnt illegal. I mean I just want to swim and read books and grow my own food in peace. Can I do that somewhere?
In the last few weeks I have been repeatedly told that I have to accept peoples naivity and ignorance because they cant help it, that I have to just forget about the things I believe in because they wont make me happy. How the fuck can anybody sleep at night knowing the things that are going on in our world. How can you just ignore the injustices that are suffered. To me it is unfathomable. To stop feeling so passionately about the health of our world would be to lose myself to everything I hate. I guess I am destined for misery, but at least it will be my misery.
I really just don’t understand anti caps. I mean, I don’t understand what they expect us to do about the orcas in captivity now. Orcas have not been captured since the 1980s, quite a few have them have been born in captivity. You can’t just go and release them, they would die. As for seapens, how…
I think this is a pretty harsh (and perhaps ignorant) generalisation of people who are anti-captivity. Im anti-cap yet I fully understand that animals that are already in captivity cant be released for numerous reasons. That doesnt mean I have to like the fact that someone put them there in the first place or endorse the breeding and capture of more individuals for our benefit. I also think that “my orca romance” made a bit of a point against herself in saying that captive orcas are sensitive to natural diseases. If they cant survive novel diseases in our seas- their natural habitat then they arnt “fit”, and unfit animals dont really have much use for conservation purposes. I also have major problems with a lot of the genetic problems associated with captive breeding programs which can lead to inbreeding depression. Ecologists and geneticists the world over still dont know effectively how to stop this from happening in captive populations, and the impacts are huge-inbreeding depression often causes defects and greatly reduces the survival potential of offspring and subsequent generations.
I understand where pro-cap people come from, because the truth is we are destroying our world and we need to implement programs to help maintain species such as orca, but I also think there are better more up-to-date ways to do it, for example the recently proposed ”moveable” marine reserves which follow migration and breeding patterns of at risk species and genetic libraries.
I think the divide between pro cap and anti-cap is ridiculous, because at the base of things both parties have the same motive for believing what we believe- we want to protect species, if only people would direct their energies towards the cause and not to arguing amongst themselves!